You know how life is

" A man without aim is like a ship without a rudder " . I quoted that in an essay I wrote in my sixth standard English exam . I even used to like that quote , the ship propelling ,steered by the rudder ; the man living guided by his aim ; well you know how it works . Fastforward four years I had found my rudder or so it seemed . Things happened my ship changed directions passing through triangles hitherto unknown before reaching a state of lull . I had lost faith in my rudder , that might have happened a long time ago but
it really struck me later . Confused and distraught i looked for answers around me . Standard procedure , a naive mistake , for it was really within me that i should have been looking . But you know , truth hurts , so you don't acknowledge it and move on , while time glides and only when the burden becomes too heavy to carry that is  when you , boggled down by the heaviness of your own heart , care for a look behind . And it sends you into a realm of nostalgic dreams and you decide to change things around you , to live for what you really care for , for your dreams and not someone else's . This happened around 10 - 15 times , this nostalgia and revamping your life stuff . Everyone loves being nostalgic .
It takes a free man to actually acknowledge that this aim thing doesn't work . Never will . When God made  there are so many fruits why only eat banana , why not  pear, structurally so enamouring and tasty as well . Its always better to take things as they come . Like this blog post , i don't know where its going, it started with a small idea and we shall see .  Like suppose someone calls me for dinner now , having aimed to complete this post by 8:45 , i can't afford to go . But a free man won't give a rat's ass about it and shall complete it in one line and happily jaunt away .But I love nostalgia , and will be back to my withered old self and my aims haranguing me .