Monday, May 28, 2012

On Cricket

One of the earliest memories that i recall is of my father holding the bat alongside me and enacting a perfect cover drive . He was good at cricket , but a natural left hander , I on the other hand was a right hander with occasional bouts of left handedness to reenact that charm of a square cut that Ganguly so effortlessly played . Cricket was never a topic of discussion at home but had seamlessly blended into the household through the family following every match that was telecast on Doordarshan .
I can't say when i started watching cricket but  it was sometime before the '96 WC . I distinctly remember a towering six that Jayasuriya hit against England , one of his many at that World Cup ,as a bemused Jack Russell watched the ball scale heights and eventually land somewhere on the roof . But it was to be a  WC of heartbreak as I discovered sometime later . I never watched the Semi Final to its conclusion , not that the ever sporting crowd of Eden Gardens didn't allow me to ,i had resigned to defeat a long time before people took matters in their own hands . Unfortunately i managed to catch a fleeting glimpse of Kambli , gloves , helmet in hands and tears in eyes , my heart was with him and  my eyes reciprocated his own .
'96 did more for Tennis than perhaps it did for Cricket in India . I never knew such a game existed, before that lad called Paes brought a bronze medal home . And that was the time doordashan began to oblige us with savory treats of Grand Slam semi finals and Finals . I watched them all , Paes Bhupati , Woodbridge Woodford , and Rafter that ponytailed herculean fighting it out against  Agassi and Sampras . Perhaps Hingis  too though i don't recall . Tennis was enjoyable , but it was more of a upper class sport , the only court in the vicinity being at IITK and not worth the trouble . So i stuck to playing cricket in gullies , occasionally in parks and maybe once or twice in stadiums .
Although Kanpur has an international cricket stadium i had never watched a match there until 2002 when India hosted England .  It was january and naturally the pitch was wet due to early morning dew . The match started late and was cut short to 39 overs . India made no heck in chasing a modest target of 219 that England had set with Sachin scoring 87 . But overall it was a dry affair , or so it looked from my seat in the student stands . Perhaps cricket is a sport meant for drawing rooms than stadiums , but i cannot really say for sure .
Though a taste of watching cricket from close quarters wasn't one to savour , i had complete faith in the ability of the idiot box to provide my cricket fix . I followed cricket assiduosly till 2007 ,but after that things were never quite the same any more . It was not completely downhill and i still enjoyed watching test matches and ODIs . But I could never stand 20-20 , and it was everywhere . The launch of IPL and then  IPL 2 perhaps proved to be the final twist of the knife .
For most of my college life i have not followed the Indian Cricket team , except the occasional match and the World Cup , which left me teary eyed ( and perhaps Kambli too ) . But i hope to make up for the transgressions and follow cricket again , perhaps at a more comforting time and place , when my head and heart are at peace with each other

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

You know how life is

" A man without aim is like a ship without a rudder " . I quoted that in an essay I wrote in my sixth standard English exam . I even used to like that quote , the ship propelling ,steered by the rudder ; the man living guided by his aim ; well you know how it works . Fastforward four years I had found my rudder or so it seemed . Things happened my ship changed directions passing through triangles hitherto unknown before reaching a state of lull . I had lost faith in my rudder , that might have happened a long time ago but
it really struck me later . Confused and distraught i looked for answers around me . Standard procedure , a naive mistake , for it was really within me that i should have been looking . But you know , truth hurts , so you don't acknowledge it and move on , while time glides and only when the burden becomes too heavy to carry that is  when you , boggled down by the heaviness of your own heart , care for a look behind . And it sends you into a realm of nostalgic dreams and you decide to change things around you , to live for what you really care for , for your dreams and not someone else's . This happened around 10 - 15 times , this nostalgia and revamping your life stuff . Everyone loves being nostalgic .
It takes a free man to actually acknowledge that this aim thing doesn't work . Never will . When God made  there are so many fruits why only eat banana , why not  pear, structurally so enamouring and tasty as well . Its always better to take things as they come . Like this blog post , i don't know where its going, it started with a small idea and we shall see .  Like suppose someone calls me for dinner now , having aimed to complete this post by 8:45 , i can't afford to go . But a free man won't give a rat's ass about it and shall complete it in one line and happily jaunt away .But I love nostalgia , and will be back to my withered old self and my aims haranguing me .